Had a talk with LY and she realise i've changed quite a bit. That's because we haven't been talking!!! Met mom and daph at TM. Went to get my phone (it's damn F-cool) and bumped into botak nic. And the best part was, he was damn thick skinned!!!
Nic: Your mother ah?Me: Obvious right?Nic: Auntie, I join you guys for dinner okay?Me: -SHOCKED. That's damn thick skinned man.Mom: Of course you can. do join us.Daph: The more the merrier.So, after dinner, headed home with Nic. Took the same bus and we talked about things i didn't know at all. It was fun after all, Nic joining my mom and i for dinner. And he said my mom's damn cool. We even smoked together while my mom stood next to me asking all of us not to smoke so much. -laughs.
Took lots of pictures in school today. Will upload it once Eldora darling uploaded it. More pictures to come tomorrow!!
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Goodbye my almost lover. Goodbye my hopeless dream. I'm trying not to think about you. Can't you just let me be? So long my luckless romance, my back has turned on you. Should i know you will bring my heartache, almost lover, always do.I can't wake up in the morning without you on my mind. So now you're gone and i'm hurting. I'll make it right and make it easy.
I've decided to go for the study trip to Melbourne. I think the total cost of air ticket plus taxes plus hotel lodging and all is about two thousand bucks (wow wow wow, so not expensive!). Tomorrow's submission of the document plus two hundred bucks deposit. So glad Marcella and Sapphira are going too. Eldora and Valsy, tell me you guys are going too!!
Another exciting thing!! I'm gonna get my new phone tomorrow (Oh, YES! FINALLY).
Spent the whole day in school with classmates, without Eldora darling, and then spent some time with others at bizpark. Made Eilis and Marcella walk to CGH with me to meet Priscilla just to get something (thanks for the gift from Seattle, dear). And then, F-HEAVY RAIN!!!! We so so so hate the rain, especially when Eilis is hungry okay! It's really bad. I think she wanted to chop me into pieces. SCARED!!
(edited: Marcella, thanks for trying to be there for me all the time although i'm always damn auntie. Eilis, thanks for listening to me when i'm like crying non-stop on the phone for almost ten mins. LY, thanks for answering my calls in the midst of your work, and you had to listen to my crying and think of funny things to make me laugh. Thank you for being there)
Shida the Geisha!! and ally allie(:
Jelly tots
Monday, June 23, 2008
Ask me for my status and i'll tell you i'm single. Yes, i am. So please don't ask me if i'm attached or anything. I want to get a new phone!!! I wanna get Samsung i780. It fucking costs 828 bucks without contract. Hmm, should i or should i not? What should i do now? Would it be right? Is this what she wants right from the start? I wouldn't know.Daphne Yong, this is the so called quiz you want me to do. I think it's damn stupid. And i wouldn't ask anyone to do this. I think they will think it's stupid too. -laughsFirst :Best friend :
MuranPet :
Pomeranian puppy!Piercing :
Ear Lobe laaaaaa.Crush:
Eunice TayCD :
S Club 7Car :
A red toy car.Stuff animal :
I think it's a bumble bee(:Love :
I don't even remember who's my first love.Place called home :
Aljunied Joo Seng Road.Last :Beverage :
Mocha from Bizpark.Car ride :
Bus ride you mean?Movie seen :
I don't watch movies for god's sake.Phone call :
Priscilla PhileonSong you listened to :
Everything I'm Not by The Veronicas.Bubble bath :
Probably a couple of months back.Time you cried :
Oh, yesterday 22th june! (I fell at work)Thing you ate :
Baked fish penna with tomato base. -yum yumHave you ever :Dated one of your best friends :
I don't usually have best friends.Been arrested :
No please. Look at me!Skinny dipped :
Wonder what's that man.Been on a limo :
YES! My uncle's. which is like two years back in HK.Cheated :
Yes? No? Maybe? Someone cheated my love.Been in a car accident :
Never ever gonna try that.Broke a bone :
Not at all.Bad thing you did :
Broke many hearts.Things you've done today :Favourite things :
Nicotine intake, Camwhoring and BizparkingPeople you tell almost everything to :
Eilis, Eldora and some random strangers i don't even know well.Choices :Live or die :
Live.Sweets or chocolates :
Sweets and more sweets.Swim or run :
Swim ( i wouldn't collapse).Things you want to do before you die :
Watch the sun rise and nights skies with her*Do you have true friends :
I guess i do.Things you regret :
Not being able to love her* the way i always wanted to.
Jelly tots
Sunday, June 22, 2008
I was just wondering when's the last time i fell. The next thing happened, i fell during work. I've like a big bruise on my knee cap and a cut on my elbow. Plus i was super sleepy, my thumb were slammed by the damn fridge's door. And i burnt my left fingers with the F-hot cream of mushroom. This is what happens when i'm not in the right state of mind. My mind went wandering around the forest trying to search for the same tree but to no valid. It kinda came back after the fall, which is when i started to feel the pain. Can you feel my pain? It is like superdupermajorultra painful. -sayangs-
It's time. It's time to say goodbye. But I swear i'll make it right.
Jelly tots
Thursday, June 19, 2008
CSA early in the afternoon, and it's not even one quarter completed. Deadlines' on monday 9am!!! Holy mother, how am i going to complete the damn spreadsheets and stuff plus plus plus macroecons' news articles which includes four hundred words analysis for each article?!! And just so you know, i'll be working every single day from twelve to ten thirty pm!! Tell me, how do i complete it? It's quite bad to start my first year first semester this way. I need to change for the better. For your sake, and mine, i'll change.
Spent some time at Liat's starbucks with dar before Nurul, Mel and Yangs came over. Nurul has this (stupid) game that draws lines. Thought it would be fun. But but it's damn stupid. Seriously, it's F-stupid. Well, nice seeing you guys in town (instead of bizpark all the time).
Jelly tots
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
usted se ha preguntado siempre cuanto usted significa a mi? usted ha pensado siempre en amarme la manera te quiero? apenas usted sabe tan, usted sigue siendo el que falto la mayoria.
Jelly tots
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Twenty year old. That's my age. Am i old? I don't feel old though. I still feel that i'm fucking naive and immature. I want things the way i want it, and nothing can stop me from doing what i want. I hate celebrations. I don't like to celebrate my birthday. It always turns out disappointing.
Me: Birthday girl is reaching home soon.Mom: Not time yet.Me: It's only forty minutes away!Mom: You're getting older, not younger and you're still so happy. Horrible girl.Me: HAHA. It doesn't matter to me. I don't even feel like i'm sixteen.Mom: As long as you are happy, I am happy for you.Me: (:I wonder what happens if i were to tell her i'm unhappy actually. I've not been a happy girl for a long time already. I just want to be really happy for a day.
Jelly tots
Monday, June 9, 2008
I don't want to do anything on my birthday. I just want to lock myself in the room and smoke for all i want. I don't need anything for my birthday. I just want you to be there when i call. I've never loved someone so foolishly. I've never protected my heart. I hear it in my mind all of these voices. I hear it in my mind all of these words. It breaks my heart. ):
Don't want you to be upset.
Don't want you to be gloomy.
Just want you to be the happiest girl on earth.
(I wonder how i get so many cuts on my hands)
Jelly tots
Saturday, June 7, 2008
Three days to go. That would be seventy two hours. I know you guys are planning something for my birthday. I've no clue what is it about. Not even a little clue. But i really hope it wouldn't be a disappointment.
Thank you guys. You guys have been such great friends and companion. You guys are always there when i'm emotionally stressed and physically worn out. Thanks a lot.
And thank you, Daphne Yong. You're the only one who knows me inside out. You know it when i'm down or when i'm happy. You can read me like a book. That makes you special.
And you, i want you to know, i'll always be there for you.
Jelly tots
Thursday, June 5, 2008
When the moment gets too hard, end of the road can feel so far. No matter how much time we are apart, I'm always near you. I'll be the shelter in your rain, help you find your smile again. Because I'm never gonna walk away, even when the walls come down someday. All alone and you feel afraid, I'll be there when you call my name. You can always depend on me. I believe in forever ends. I will be your friend.
I would give you everything you ask for. And i will always be ready to give you a lot more. I would also give the world, right in the palm of your hand.
If heaven and hell decided that we both are satisfied, illuminate the NOs on our vacancy signs.
*I got my knuckles bruised by a lady in black.
Jelly tots
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
This is when the heart starts to sing its song. This is when we feel the emotions in it. This is when we start to build up all the emotions in us. Take my hand and join me in it. I didn't know where to turn to. Thinking that i somehow deserve it. If you didn't notice you mean everything. I am learning how to love again, right from the start (the very very beginning). All i know is that i'm gonna be okay. It is so gonna hurt when it heals too. But it'll all get better in time. Was it all that easy to just put aside your feelings? And even though i really love you, i'm gonna smile because i deserve to. Just want you to know i do love you. Yes, i do.
Jelly tots
Saturday, May 31, 2008
Accounts, accounts and more accounts. I so hate accounts. But what can i do? I've no choice but to keep on studying. I don't want anything or anyone to affect my studies. Life's been like a rollercoaster, and it is still going on. You've no idea how much i dislike the rollercoaster. Maybe we should try the reverse bungy instead. Priscilla was quite random. Sweet though. She sent this:
"Hey girl, I know that you are probably very hurt and broken now. But a broken spirit and a contrite heart the Lord will not despise. Sending you love tonight. I know i can't comfort you but i pray that the spirit Himself will comfort you. When you have no words to pray, no tears to cry or no feelings to feel, Holy spirit knows and comforts."Keep up the good work, Ally.
You are doing fine.
And you're happy this way.
Jelly tots
Friday, May 30, 2008
I was suffering from gastritis the whole of last night since seven pm. I thought the pain will go away. But no, I was wrong. The pain got worst. Took a cab over to Priscilla's to get some medicine, it was too painful for me to even walk. So in the end i went to the hospital. The doctor said I need to be admitted. Obvious i'm unwilling. I can't imagine myself lying on the bed, in the hospital with so many people staring at each other, spreading germs. So i thought he would just give me some kind of medication to stop the pain. But he gave me this jab (as shown below) and kept me there waiting for an hour to observe if the pain remains. Because if there pain doesn't go away, I'll have to be warded. So after an hour of waiting, I was super tired already. I went to the doctor and told him I'm actually feeling better and I want to go home. The pain was still there though. This was written on the documents: "Advised to be admitted. Patient is unwilling. Request discharge."
Look, this is the cool-est picture i've ever taken.
I don't want any changes between us.I want us to remain the same.Just like the past.Because you wouldn't know how much you mean to me.I'll never trade you for the world.
Jelly tots
