Friday, January 25, 2008

Dear Lord Jesus,
you've blessed me with so many things.
so many little things that i've so much thanks for you.
you answer me whenever i call for you.
you answer my prayers whenever i needed you to.
you hold back the rain each time i've asked you to.
you gave me so many things that fills my heart with joy.
i'm very thankful. very much, in fact.
yet i feel so broken inside.
darling kept saying i'm a liar.
i didn't lie.
i've been trying to change.
i've been telling everybody the truth.
even if the truth hurts.
i do know that this is what You want me to do.
this is what You want from me.
but these clouds of accusation hurts me.
the accusation and judgements hurts me deep down.
there is no way i can change the way i feel.
but i know i can, if i'm willing to.
You've been through all the things we go through.
You do know how it feels like.
i pray that You will give me the heart of strength.
i pray that Your truth will shine forth
and Your love can comfort me.
i pray that You will show me the path You want me to take.
You've showed me Your unfailing love.
and because of Your love, my heart can rejoice.
i'll be on my knees just for You.
i live my life for You, Father.
take away all my tears of sorrow.
take away all my fears.
take away all the bad things around me.
for i believe You will only want the best of me.
and You will only give me the best.
in the name of Jesus,
Amen!

i'm not a liar. i don't like to lie.
i wouldn't lie to you.
because i love you.

Jelly tots

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

for every breath i take, i will give thanks to Jesus Christ.
for every step i take, i will give thanks to the Lord.
for as long as i live, i will keep giving thanks to God.

Jelly tots

Monday, January 21, 2008

i realise i've done quite a few wrong things.
and said quite a few wrong things.
i need to reflect on so many things before i turn in.
Christine mommy said reflection is good.
and that i should reflect on it.
i wouldn't realise if priscilla jiejie didn't mention.
reflection.
reflection..
reflection...
in progress still.

Jelly tots

Thursday, January 17, 2008

"Be strong and courageus. Do not be afraid of terrified. For the Lord your God goes with you. He will never leave nor forsake you" (Deuteronomy 31:6)

Jelly tots

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

ENDOSCOPY.endoscopy. Endoscopy.
should i go for it?
yes? no? maybe?
O Lord, give me an answer.
God, if you care, let me hear you.

thanks for being there whenever i needed you.
thanks for showering your care and your love.
i love you. (:

Jelly tots

Monday, January 14, 2008

will blog when the mood's here and when there's something for people to know.

Jelly tots

Tuesday, January 8, 2008

starbucks' signature hot chocolate and granny's raisin scone for lunch again.
it's been like this since last week.
one more month to go.
and i'll be free from working.
praise the Lord. (:

You are everything to me.
and i do love you.

Jelly tots

Monday, January 7, 2008

terrible mense cramps!!

Jelly tots

Thursday, January 3, 2008

take away those dreams that haunt me.
take away those painful memories.
take away those painful incidents.
take away those fears in me.
take me away if You can.
take me to a place where i wouldn't remember all the incidents.
take me to a place where i could see more joys than sorrows.
take me to a place where i could live my whole life happily.

Jelly tots

Wednesday, January 2, 2008

started work at a new department.
and i've learnt so many things on the first day.
there's more to come tomorrow. ((:

baby, come over to me.
take me away with you.
let me be the one for you when you're down.

Jelly tots