Saturday, May 31, 2008

Accounts, accounts and more accounts. I so hate accounts. But what can i do? I've no choice but to keep on studying. I don't want anything or anyone to affect my studies. Life's been like a rollercoaster, and it is still going on. You've no idea how much i dislike the rollercoaster. Maybe we should try the reverse bungy instead. Priscilla was quite random. Sweet though. She sent this: "Hey girl, I know that you are probably very hurt and broken now. But a broken spirit and a contrite heart the Lord will not despise. Sending you love tonight. I know i can't comfort you but i pray that the spirit Himself will comfort you. When you have no words to pray, no tears to cry or no feelings to feel, Holy spirit knows and comforts."
Keep up the good work, Ally.
You are doing fine.
And you're happy this way.

Jelly tots

Friday, May 30, 2008

I was suffering from gastritis the whole of last night since seven pm. I thought the pain will go away. But no, I was wrong. The pain got worst. Took a cab over to Priscilla's to get some medicine, it was too painful for me to even walk. So in the end i went to the hospital. The doctor said I need to be admitted. Obvious i'm unwilling. I can't imagine myself lying on the bed, in the hospital with so many people staring at each other, spreading germs. So i thought he would just give me some kind of medication to stop the pain. But he gave me this jab (as shown below) and kept me there waiting for an hour to observe if the pain remains. Because if there pain doesn't go away, I'll have to be warded. So after an hour of waiting, I was super tired already. I went to the doctor and told him I'm actually feeling better and I want to go home. The pain was still there though. This was written on the documents: "Advised to be admitted. Patient is unwilling. Request discharge."

Look, this is the cool-est picture i've ever taken.

I don't want any changes between us.
I want us to remain the same.
Just like the past.
Because you wouldn't know how much you mean to me.
I'll never trade you for the world.

Jelly tots

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

I got to pick myself up. But where do i start? There's no more stars left, leaving the sky alone day and night. Where are the stars? Will it come back to the sky? I love the stars. I love the stars so much that i would trade anything just for it.

Jelly tots

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

This is what i do. I get things done really quick if i want to. But if i don't want to, I'll take forever. I want time to pass really slow. Maybe we should have like at least 40 hours a day? Then i'll be able to study. Well, at least try to settle down within six hours. Wonder what's wrong with me? Make a guess. It's kind of obvious. Everything's in a mess now, and i don't feel good about it. Things are changing. Everybody's behaving so weirdly. Who the hell would take a cigarette out in the middle of Bizpark and start smoking? Who the fuck would that be? That's me. I'm the fucker. Ohwell, I do hope things will turn out fine. I'm refering to everything. EVERY SINGLE THING. Especially my papers.
Mel, shit happens all the time. I'm sure you'll be able to get through this. I'll be there for you.
Roy, same goes to you. Do hope everything's fine for you and Eilis. And I'll pray that everything will go on smoothly (not so sure about it. but i do hope so okay).
LY, don't be so stressed. All you need to do is get over and done with elections. The rest you can take your time and think.

I would do anything to please.
I would want to be the only one who cares for you.
But won't you give me a little more love? -whines

Jelly tots

Monday, May 26, 2008

May i ask how much would it cost to buy some love?
If you've been neglected, what would you ask for?
Would you ask for some time?
If you feel unloved, what would you ask for?
Would you ask for a little more love?
If you feel unappreciated, what would you ask for?
Would you ask to be appreciated?
How much does it cost to buy a little love and a little time?
And how much does it cost to buy a little conversation?

Jelly tots

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

If you are my star, I'll be your sky.
You can hide underneath me and come out at night.
When i turn dark, you can show your light.
Because i live to let you shine.

Jelly tots


The bible says that God sees my future and my failures now, but why doesn't He helps? Does He wants to see me in pain? See me being hurt by people around me? I really don't understand what the fuck is wrong with the whole world. Why the fuck people try getting in the way in almost every single thing I do. And how the fuck am I supposed to deal with these irritating and annoying people. I'm so peeved. Oh god damn it. Fuck these people man. I'm craving for ben and jerry's strawberry cheesecake ice cream. And and and, white chocolate mocha frappuccino ice blended cream!!!

Jelly tots

Friday, May 9, 2008

You've got guts, and you shoot straight from the hip. I admire that. Since then, I have come to the conclusion that I am the difficult person. The people i thought were difficult are difficult from having to deal with me. Yeah, I lose patience when I think people are wasting time. But i have a lot to do, and when i have the future in my sights, people keep getting in the way and slowing me down. What do I do? Don't mince words. Just got to be honest. I can take it, I have a pretty hard shell.

You make my heart slow down.
Your touch makes me feel like heaven.
Your words make me fall deeper.


Sheeda took a picture of me in skirt.
I know this is super unglam. ):

Jelly tots

Wednesday, May 7, 2008

Every second spent with you seems to be the last second.
And i want to treasure the time i spend with you.
I don't have a lot of time.
But i'm willing to spend some time with you everyday.
I'm fine even if i get to see you for only ten mins.
Somehow i thought of the past earlier.
And i remember every single thing that happened.
It hurts quite a bit still.
I'm not surprised if others think i'm dirty.
But it hurts okay.
It hurts, deep down inside.
You wouldn't know how much it hurts,
because i've a rather thick surface over me.
Just so you know.

Jelly tots


Don't judge a book by its cover.
You'll never know what's in it.
If it's a book without cover, you'll see it all.
But i'm a book with cover.
Check out what's in it before thinking otherwise.
What we need now is a magical wand.
I can't seem to find it.
I'm too lost.
Can you please search the whole world just to look for me?

Jelly tots

Monday, May 5, 2008

Have you ever wonder why are you the one i fell for?
Do you know what i love about you?
I love the way you smile.
I love the way you giggle.
I love the way you laugh.
I love the way you talk.
I love the way you sound.
I love the way you stare at me.
I love the way you look into my eyes.
I love the way you hold me.
I love the way you hug me.
I love the way you kiss me.
I love the way you touch me.
I love the way you grab me.
I love the way you lean on me.
I love the way you tease me.
I love the way you take me the way i am.
I love all the little things you do and say.
You are the one who makes my heart beat faster and slower at the same time.
You are the one who makes me happy everyday.
And that's why you are the one who won me over.
You are the only one who satisfied my heart and soul. (:

Jelly tots