im so upset with myself.
i told myself im supposed to be losing weight.
but in the end i ate so much today.
i woke up at twelve and i had a plate of curry bee hoon.
but i vomited out after eating.
stomach wasn't feeling very well.
the curry was way too spicy for me.
and then darling and i was so bored.
suddenly i said i wanna go escape theme park.
so we hurried and we headed there.
we didn't spend much time there.
about two hours plus.
we paid sixteen bucks just for two hours.
but then,
we have two free adult tickets. hahaha.
and then we headed for sakae sushi.
damn it. that's where i ate so much.
after dinner, we played pool with friends.
after playing for more than an hour,
we headed home.
wanted to nap. but i heard something.
"ling ling ling"
THE ICE CREAM MAN !!
i pushed darling and rushed down to get ice cream.
hahahaha. its really very unlike me.
and so, i had a raspberry ripple ice cream.
then we went to mama shop buy cigg.
fuck the ah nei auntie please.
she wanted my ic.
for god's sake, who would bring ic down to buy ice cream?
she insisted on seeing my ic.
and she said i look like sixteen years old.
what the hell. i was like "ahh forget it. cb"
then i was so pissed i went back home.
finished up my ice cream and took my ic down.
she didn't believe im ninteen please.
so in the end i bought the ciggs.
went to the playground with dar to play the swing.
swing swing swing. all the way up there.
okay. so after fagging, we wen back home.
and we had two glasses of vodka lime.
i seriously think i had a lot of things today.
im quite depressed actually. im so fucking fat.
anyway, i've cut down on sugar-ed drinks.
means no more coke for me.
i've been drinking plain water the whole day for a couple of days alr.
im trying to achieve my ideal weight.
thirty eight kg will do.
i wouldn't ask for more.
dear god, let alyssa lose a lil weight.
and she wouldn't complain anymore.
she'll live her life to the fullest.
and blah blah blah.
amen.
hahahaha. damn.
alyssa's dumb. who cares.

baby, do you adore me?
do you adore me?
so you adore me?
well. i adore you.
much for than anything in the world.