if i am lost for a day, try to find me.
if i don't come back, then i won't look behind me.
all the things that i thought was so easy,
just got harder and harder each day.
i dreamt i was dying, as i so often do.
when i awoke, i'm sure it was true,
i went to the window and threw my head into the sky.
and said 'whoever is up there, please don't let me die'.
i can't live forever.
i can't always be alive.
the pages keep turning.
and i'll mark out each day with a cross.